indian summer

i never thought that i would actually hear this phrase describe london. hot summer.

the summer so far the last few months that ive been here have been miserable. its grey, its gloomy and cold.

now i can wear a shirt n short.

who says the seasons come in order?

into the world unknown

3 years ago, i started my new school life in LSOP.

i took a flight to a completely different country, almost knowing no one prior to coming here.

i didnt get MOH scholarship and was devastated. looking back, i only wanted it for the security.

now, im pre-reg-less so far. i would not even bother denying that i am stressed. this is all not important.

i recieved a package today. from singapore, with no warning. i was so happy.

sure i might be really still looking for my new road. but there is one. i just need to find it.

walking on...

its been ages since i last updated. i almost forgot that i had this blog.

currently, all job applications seem to be going downhill. scary interviews make terrible job offers, ie. none. considering how everything for the past few years have been 'mostly' smoothsailing. i can confidently say for all the travel disasters ive faced, i did miss out quite a gd set of bads ones.

ones tt i hit:

icelandic volcanic eruption (who knew they even had volcanos!)

london riots (didnt get caught but the atmosphere was really bad)

really stormy and blistering weather in NYC

Missed:

hurriance at NYC

getting caught in any major trouble (tube trouble aside)

On the upside, I know I have a really strong support group back home. Family and friends who listened to me grouse, complain and moan about the perils of being overseas, far from help. I am not alone, in all the things that I do. I neglect to understand that sometimes. Far from family doesn't mean that they support me any less. I need to remember that.

after living out for so many years, i realise that i really depend on them. how people manage to live years without seeing their parents previously, they have my respect. Skype has reduced the distance but made it all the more gaping.

I have no job offers now. but i will continue on because i know there are people who are looking out for me. giving up on myself is hardly the way to repay their efforts